To my darling wife Melody,Here I am alone in my room. I can’t get on the internet to say happy anniversary, so I am writing you a blog that I may be able to post later. I am caught off guard by how emotional I am right now. I am looking at photos of you and me over the years. The soundtrack to Phantom of the Opera is playing in my headphones. There are tears streaming down my face, for your love for me has completely captured my heart. I look back on our history, and it is hard to believe all that we have come through.
“This is the last night you’ll spend alone. Look me in the eye, so I know you know, I will wrap you in my arms and I won’t let go. I want to be everything you need me to be. Give me your hand; I will help you hold on. I won’t let you say goodbye, and I will be your reason why. This is the last night you’ll be, away from me.”
You have been my best friend. Best friends have ups and downs, but with you, the ups have totally outnumbered the downs. It is very difficult to be apart from you today. I am really undone. It is hard to wake up alone and crawl in bed alone. You are so far away…Do you have any idea how you have touched my life? How can I ever communicate this to you? I can not imagine life without you. How can I every thank you for lifetime companionship? How do I thank you for forgiving me for so much? How do I show my gratitude for the four wonderful children you gave me?
“I don’t want to live with out you, I don’t want to breathe; unless I feel you next to you, Melody you take the pain I feel. I don’t want to speak, I don’t want to think, I don’t want to dream, cause my dreams don’t comfort me the way you make me feel. I hate living without you, oh how I adore you, oh how I thirst for you, oh how I need you.”
Do you understand how you have affected my heart? Because of you I can feel compassion for people and have the courage to act on those feelings. You have taught me how to touch people with my hands. Everything I have attempted to do in my life you have come along and supported it with all that is in you. You intoxicate me. I think we are an amazing team.
“Sweetheart, no more talk of darkness, forget your wide eyed fears, I am here, with you beside you, to guard you and to guide you…nothing can harm you. Baby, say you will love me every waking moment; say you’ll need me with you now and always. Let me be your shelter, let me be your light…your safe, no one will find you, your fears are far behind you. Say you will share with me one love, one lifetime, let me lead you from your solitude, Say you need me with you here beside you, anywhere you go, let me go to…Melody that is all I ask of you. Share each day with me, each night each morning, say you love me, and love me that is all I ask of you. Anywhere you go, let me go too.”
I can remember feeling all this gushy stuff before we were married, and even in the first months of being married to you, but EIGHTEEN years later?? Our love is like a burning, consuming fire. You will never be alone, if I have anything to do with it! I am head over heels, crazy in love, overwhelmed with the blessing of you. Thanks for the best 18 years of my life. I love you.
